Medicine Failed Me

It breaks my heart to see that lovely smile,

those vibrant and colourful vies

those precious moments 

so deep and true,

all vanishing before my own view 

The silence silences all,

there is nothing to be said nor done at all

In moment of such sorts,

when the divine has the upper hands of the lot,

I wonder, as I stare the abyss, I wonder,

if I can forced to fight alone, then oh god, why even bother

All hope seems gone, and yet I wearn to see your smile, one last time

Praying to God in those never ending nights 

Crying all tears out, just for that one meeting time

Hence, and hence forth it breaks my lovely heart, 

To see all these memories, all these lovely times running right before my eyes

And in these moments, I am forced to but wonder....

Why do I even try ?